I wish I could be a Hermit

I wish that I had no needs.

I wish that I had no feelings.

No need for human interaction.

No need for attachments.

No need for money.

No desires.

No thought.

I wish that I could live completely alone and never need anyone.

I don’t understand why I exist.

Life is a never-ending carrot on a stick.

I hate having needs.

Why do I exist?

I suck at everything.

Life is suffering.


  • I really feel this lately.

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  • Rebecca Foreman

    Reilly: I can feel your pain/depression when I read your blog. I’ve had the same feelings that you write in your blog. I’m praying for you, that God would wrap His loving arms around you and give peace. Yes, I am a Christian.

    I wanted to tell you how loved you are. You are loved by you family, friends, and most of all-by God. Life definitely is suffering at times. Right now I have had five surgeries on my left hip & am unable to walk because they broke my femur twice, and had to totally remove the hip bone. I am staying in one chair probably until August.

    What I want to tell you is you’re infinitely loved by God. So loved that Jesus lay down his life for all. Here are some verses to let you know your worth.

    John 3:16. For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life.

    Psalm 139;13-16 For You created my inmost being; You knit me together In my mothers womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depth of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them before one of them came to be.

    1John 3:1. See what great love the Father has lavished us, that we should be called children ofGod! And that is what we are!

    I’m not trying to be preachy. I know you probably don’t remember me but your folks stood up with Gregg and me when we got married.

    Sorry for the lengthy note. I’ll pray for you. Love from Becki Foreman ❤️🦩

    Sent from my iPhone


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  • Linda A Daniels

    Dear Reilly… You are not alone. These are difficult times. Unbelievably difficult. Please… Keep up the blogging. It is beneficial to all of us. I send you all my love. And you know what I tell myself 20-30 times a day? “Better to light a candle than curse the darkness”. You have lighted many candles. Sending love & light.

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  • I know this feeling, I’ve experienced it and it sucks. I hope you know that this is just your brain talking and not actually true. You don’t suck. In fact, you’re pretty awesome.

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