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So what now?

This year, I’ve been in the midst of an identity crisis. I’ve been searching for a new path and for something to give me meaning in my life. I’ve been in a period of change and growth. I’ve been questioning who I am, what I want to be, and how I use my time.

Meaning for my doesn’t come from religion as I don’t believe in God. If you do, I have no problem with this. There isn’t one way to approach life. I’m in the process of discovering my spiritual side through meditation. What I know for certain is that I believe the universe wasn’t created by anything, and simply exists. The universe simply is. It started at the Big bang.

I don’t get meaning from work, my philosophy is to work to live vs live to work. Maybe this is my biases from working mostly minimum wage jobs most my life. I’d be happy with enough money to get by, pay my bills, and not have to worry about being bankrupt by healthcare. I’d be happy with family and friends in my life. I don’t want to work more than 40 hours a week, don’t want to work overtime, or thanksgiving or Xmas. That said, I don’t mind working hard for something I believe in.

I am enough.

The next thing I need to work on is forgiveness. I need to forgive myself for my mistakes, and I need to forgive several people who aren’t in my life anymore. Living and dead. I’m working on learning to love myself. I’m working on appreciating the wonderful people in my life who I feel I haven’t been grateful for. I’m coming out of a long, dark hole that has lasted about 10 years. I really miss many people I haven’t seen in person for a long time, before Covid was a thing.

I’m so grateful that I found my new companion, my new kitten Coconut (pictured above). I didn’t think that I could love again after losing my dear cat Flip in December, and all the romantic rejection I’ve had in life. I’m so glad to be wrong. I love my kitty, and I’m learning to love myself. Life isn’t over yet!

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