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I’ve been stuck in a perfectionist mindset for a while, and that needs to stop.

This is the old me. I recognize that this is an old voice in my head. I know this isn’t good for me. I recognize these thoughts as other people, such as family or society.

It’s still a pain to sort through these, and get to what I want. What I feel. What is true to me.

Change is hard, and comes slowly.

At the time of this post, I have 52 draft posts.

I haven’t published these for many reasons. All are signs that I have changed. That I have grown as a person since I started blogging 2+ years ago.

Reasons why for the drafts: lost interest, procrastination, felt it didn’t sit right, potentially over sharing, the post needed more time to breathe, timing for SEO wasn’t great, or the post simply needed more work, or I had to prioritize self care.

I accept and resent that I have Long Covid. Like all chronic illness, it is unpredictable. I have been doing well on self care and asserting my needs to others with this illness. It’s come first this year since I caught it in January. I really took for granted all that time I had before this disease that I could write with some effort. All that time that I could choose to do activities instead of not having that choice due to symptoms.

I have to remind myself that it’s okay to not be perfect. Perfect is subjective. Life is often lived in the gray area. Yes it is possible to sometimes have it all line up, and things unfold in a perfect manner, in your point of view.

All this is to say that I have to remind myself to be okay with good enough. Putting an imperfect post out like this is better for yourself and the blog than nothing. Every post counts. If only for the sake of writing it. Publishing it is good too.

Good enough is better than nothing at all. Each step is progress. The doing is the point. The doing is living life.

This is good enough for today. The “perfect” amazing posts are in your head, Reilly. Sure it would be nice if one or a few went viral, or hell, brought slightly more attention with new readers other than people you already know, and the few subscribers who do read your stuff. (Love Y’all)

If you fuck up, or nobody reads this post, which has happened before being as this blog is tiny… Whatever.

I am finally living the life I want, and who I want to be. I’m not perfect. I’m simply doing my best and being open to what life presents me. With these five words, this post is over 500! Good enough!

Victory!

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• F SEO, Be imperfect. Be good Enough.
• Trying Something New
• Unique Opportunity, Part 2.
• Existential (Blog) Crisis
• Back from the break
• The Pandemic Blues
• I Hate advertising
• Dream Job
• Adjusting Boundaries Outside-In ☯️
• Netflix and chill afternoon date by myself.