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Things are moving forward!

To begin, I haven’t yet inspected my PC for problems.

Though I’m keeping up with school and getting good grades in my classes, I’ve been sick since last Monday.

I’m at the point in the quarter where I’m barely keeping up with assignments, and for my math class, it’s become a grind.

This sickness has been draining as fuck.

I’m feeling emotional whiplash living a solitary life. Again. Going to Barter Faire two weekends ago was such a great, good, fun, interesting time. Having satisfying quality time with family and new friends was an enriching experience.

I experienced again what it feels like to be human and have a full life. How I live regularly is a depressing, small life where I’m not happy and get by the minimum amount. I could do this because there wasn’t Internet service or Internet at the Faire. Which was refreshing as I can’t remember the last time I had been without it for a couple of days.

It was a profound positive experience.

I really, really need regular in-person interaction with people around my age. Well, or anyone who vibes.

I’m so ready for COVID-19 not to be a health threat. Though I live in a place with a high vaccination rate, the fear of catching COVID-19 and extending or worsening the Long Covid I have is exhausting.

Before I got the new vaccine, I was feeling healthy consistently for the first time in… Well, before January 2022 when I was infected.

How do you measure having your shit together?

I need to get a part-time job. I need to make some money. It would be good to get out of the house and have fulfilling social interactions with people. Not having an income and living off savings doesn’t make me feel good. I liked having a job and being able to pay my bills.

All in all I’m making progress in some parts of my life, and stalled in others.

Though I feel like life is repeating, I am progressing towards the life I want.

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