Splashed like a Magikarp dipped in paint on a Jackson Pollock canvas

This is how I have felt dealing with life recently

Or as known in it’s much more common use, the Pokemon move commonly used by the water type Pokemon Magikarp…

Sp is a move that accomplishes , wasted your turn and you wait for your opponent to attack on their assigned turn.

Pokemon game move descriptions for the move Splash. A different description for each Pokemon game.

…It’s not very effective…

Magikarp has a purpose: evolve it to level 20 in Pokemon games and it turns into a Gyrados

Pokemon Gyrados bursting up through blue water, and firing a fiery laser beam — Most of it’s moves are beam or anger based.

I’ve been feeling non-verbal and feel gifs are the best way to express myself.

Seriously.

I’ve gone feral and returned to a caveman state.

Not a good look.

I’ve lost motivation and a reason to make money other than the sake of paying bills.

Due to my health needs, it’s become difficult to find suitable work as I can only work part time and can’t do anything that’ll cause sensory overload or trigger chronic fatigue.

Which, turns out to be most entry level minimum wage jobs.

But, even if that wasn’t the case, it feels pointless.

I’m fed up with being a swan. I may look normal, but underwater I’m paddling for my life. (A quote from the TV show: Winning time, the rise of the Lakers dynasty)

I enjoy being a hedonist way, way too much.

The clock is about to run out/My wallet is about empty and I won’t have enough to pay for bills after this month. Even though it’s been 4 months being unemployed, mostly resting, and doing whatever I want to do, I knew at one point this would end and I’d have to grow up get a job.

Fuck I hate working. Especially when you make minimum wage (or paddling above starvation & unhoused).

And I got another 35+ years of this shit? 5-8 hours a day of suffering. Great…

I wish work felt as enjoyable and fulfilling as watching TV and playing games. Even then, I’m not really paying full attention to one thing. I’m usually scrolling on my phone or playing a game in another tab while something is on another tab.

Ugh.

Gif of a white person's hand descending into water as a person drowns in a comedic manner.

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