I’m still alive
Hello there blog readers. I haven’t posted in over a month and figured it’s past time to post something.
I haven’t felt like blogging and life’s been boring and repetitive. I’m going to college taking psychology 101 and math 98 and doing well in both classes. Sometimes they are fulfilling, most of the time, it’s work to do.
Outside of school, I watch TV and browse the Internet, the latter being doom scrolling of news or Instagram. I bought a giant TV (75 inches) as a gift to myself for A grades in class last quarter and a Xmas gift to myself.
I thought I would be happier after getting this TV, it is nice to watch stuff on it, but after two weeks I’m back to how I felt about life as before it.
I’ve been thinking that maybe I’m losing interest in blogging and writing. Neither feels as fulfilling or entertaining as before. Same with every other activity I do day to day.
It doesn’t help that I sprained my ankle two weeks ago when I was taking out the recycling. I didn’t do anything incredible, one foot slipped and my left ankle twisted. So I have that going for me.
I’m going stir crazy and feel like life is pointless because we’re stuck in this awful capitalist system.
It feels like I can’t change, I don’t see the point of changing, the system won’t change, and I’m passing time until my time on earth ends.
Not that the long time investment I put into myself has changed anything in my life or paid off. Not relationships. Not careers. Not therapy. Not medicine. Maybe each has provided brief relief, but that wears off. More often than not, it adds frustration or pain.
I’m not looking for sympathy or anything.
So, this year I’ll update when I can.
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