Category Archives: 2023

Still not recovered

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I apologize for missing posts for the past week

I’m still feeling shitty from Serotonin Syndrome –see the previous post about it here—. At least, I assume it’s still Serotonin Syndrome based on my symptoms. I haven’t been able to sleep consistently, have frequent headaches, and am extremely sensitive to light and sound; I have random aches and pains in my back and neck, and barely able to take care of myself before I park in my office chair and scroll mindlessly or watch comfort tv/movies because mental effort makes my head hurt.

It concerns me enough that I’ll be calling the nurse line at my doctor’s office to get medical advice. I should be doing better by now. My doctor said that this condition should resolve in two weeks. Yet I don’t feel much better and can’t leave the house. I tried so last Thursday because I was craving ice cream from a trendy fusion spot, and I paid the price for days because it was bright and sunny. This was even though it was a 20-minute round trip. That was a mistake.

I guess that was the eye of the storm where I briefly felt better. I’ve been doing the right thing, yet I still feel shitty.

And my original paid leave expires Monday. I have no reason to think that work wouldn’t be okay with me taking more time off to feel better… (Well, I have some apologies to make due to mistakes I made before medical leave). Maybe this awful feeling that something is wrong is anxiety.

Well, that’s probably a side effect of stopping the antidepressant that caused this. …Or just because.

I’m so tired of struggling with my health. I’m sick of experiencing horrible side effects with medicines.

On top of this, I’m going through an existential crisis and a breakthrough in a way. The little time I have not been in pain I’m thinking about my future. Is this the best I can do? Is this the life I want? Being alone with your thoughts with few distractions does that. I’m ready to change my life whenever I’m healthy. I’m ready.

I’m not going to make a promise when I am blogging again regularly because I don’t know when. It currently hurts me to exert myself, which causes pain when I write mentally. I must take care of myself and get my life back on track. See you all soon!

P.S. I guess being able to write this post is proof that I have recovered somewhat. I’ll take that win.

Dear Readers: due to a bug, this blog isn’t showing on the WordPress Reader…

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Oh wordpress bugs…

Thanks to Pooja of https://lifesfinewhine.ca/, a friend and long-time reader, it has come to my attention that there is currently a bug with this website not showing up on the reader section of WordPress. The blog is not showing up there or on the follower list. Until WordPress support contacts me or fixes the bug, could you please Subscribe through the email bar below to keep up to date with the blog?

Back to our regularly scheduled programming. New blog posts are on Monday and Thursday mornings, Pacific Standard Time.

The Highs and The Lows of 2022

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2023 written in sand on a beach

Happy New year!

It is now 2023, as is tradition on social media and the world at large… It’s time to reflect on 2022 and review my life of the previous year. Unlike the cliche, 2022 felt like a year and didn’t go by fast and, more often than not, slower for me than others.

2022 can be summarized by the following themes: Work, Long Covid, Going out into the world again, online dating, and Inner growth.

My favorite posts which underperformed:

Close Encounters of the Good Eats kind.

This post is about when I went to a book signing for Alton Brown, one of my cooking idols. I used to want to be a chef and worked in the restaurant industry, so going to buy his new book, get it signed by him, and have a word was something I wasn’t going to miss!

Pumpkin Spice Cinnamon Rolls

Pumpkin Spice Cinnamon Rolls is a recipe I created, which is to add pumpkin pie filling and double pumpkin pie spices to the classic cinnamon roll. This recipe is dairy free and doesn’t use sugar. instead, it uses an erythritol blend.

The Mariners 2022 ALDS… (Part 3 of 3)

The Mariners 2022 ALDS… (Part 3 of 3). (Not a fan of this title after the fact) This post is about my experience going to the first Seattle Mariners home playoff game in 21 years! It was the first time I had ever gone to any home professional sports game in my life. Boy, was it worth it. It’s the conclusion to a 3 part series, in which previous posts are linked in the post. It was game 3 of 5, win or go home for the Mariners, the entire state was covered in dangerous forest fire smog, and I did my part by writing a prayer to the god of the mariners by visiting its first stadium site in town, and burning the prayer to the god before the game.

The top 3 posts according to readers:

Moving Mountains

This blog post is about a time I felt depressed and down on myself after a recent breakup.

Close, but no Cigar

This post is about my only brief relationship, which happened in June 2022.

Unique Opportunity, Part 2.

This post is about my experience getting an article published in the Seattle Times newspaper about the challenges of finding a therapy that works for me and learning that I was on the Autism Spectrum at age 36.

Days in a Life

Days in a Life is a post set in a challenging time in my life, right after I had finally had sex for the first time and was a virgin no more. My cat Coco wasn’t doing well either, and I was worried she might have had a UTI. I was freaking out and was sure something was wrong with me too. You’ll have to read the post to find out. Unfortunately, I haven’t had sex since.

And finally, Long covid. In about 10 days, it will be a year since I caught covid and I haven’t recovered. While the severity of sickness has improved slowly since I’m not the same person physically, I was a year ago. If you haven’t gotten the covid vaccine or the latest booster yet, please do. You don’t want this disability. I wasn’t able to blog for long periods due to this disease. I can barely exercise without becoming so exhausted that I need to go home and sleep. There’s no cure. There are treatments, but that isn’t a guarantee because it’s basically throwing shit at a wall. Even if there will be treatments, I bet it will be expensive and not covered by insurance in America. Which is the case with conditions that do have medical solutions such as ADD or diabetes.

https://theunknownreillyblog.wordpress.com/2022/09/10/living-with-long-covid/